Still icky

Number of naps so far today: 2
Number of calories burned: 0
Icky moments: tons
Soreness level: 4
Cookies: none. I have no cookies!!!

I still feel icky. Same as yesterday.

But an e-mail from Barnes and Noble makes me feel so much better. It's almost October (my favorite month) which means it's almost Halloween (the best holiday ever). And what would be better than Halloween and October goodness? Wicked. YES!!!! (if anyone who knows me actually reads this take note because this is early b-day, Christmas, gift-giving day ideas)


The Grimmerie!! $25. Totally worth it.

This bag is out of stock. WTF people? I totally need one too!!! I have to visit Barnes and Noble tomorrow to see if by chance they have some. $18 Seriously. I want.
My favorite song. Ever. EVER!!!!!! $12

Popular, also one of my favorites. I have to have it too.



I could totally use this for... whatever. I just want it. $7

Double-sided!!!? what? Who wouldn't want a double-sided anything? $9

Leather bound and only $18. No joke. Want.
Another book pertaining to Wicked? Want by default. $16


Pens... Wicked themed PENS! $9 Worth every penny

A journal that locks. so cool. because I would write so much in there. Not. But who cares? I don't $14
Puzzles

seriously



I love puzzles. $14 each... ouch... but so pretty. Cannot not get them. Must go to store. SOON. (spending almost $200 on all Wicked stuff isn't bad is it??)

What is this feeling??? it's so sudden... so new... oh it's just me heart beating out of my body from excitement. I need to lay down again....

Icky icky icky

Number of naps so far today: 3
Number of calories burned: 0
Icky moments: many
Hours watching stuff on Hulu: 0
Soreness level: 8

I hate feeling sick. I hate not being about to use my nose properly. I hate how things taste when I"m sick too. I hate that achy feeling, like I've stretched everything the wrong way and can't make it go back. I hate how my head feels like it's on fire, and yet not. I hate the feeling like I can't hear properly either. I hate going from hot to cold and back, and then waking up sweaty even though it's not hot. I hate missing school because of it. I hate being sick.

I wish I had some waffles right now. Belgium waffles like I had the other night with my BFF. Even though I don't feel like eating, I think I could force down those waffles right now.

Must study

Number of naps so far today: 1
Number of calories burned: 0
Hours studying: 0
Hours watching stuff on Hulu: about 2
Stress level: 8

I really should be studying, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I'd much rather sleep or watch movies.

People should pay more attention to the crap they write about. If you have a blog, for the love of Yoda, don't write something you'd be embarrassed about. If you wouldn't show it to a parent, or close friend, then don't post it. I recently was looking at someone's profile and saw that they had a blog. I read it and I will never be able to look at that person again. I can only imagine what employers think of that stuff.

I'm still kind of on the fence about the new episode of the Office. I don't see why they had to bring Ryan back in the first ep. That could have waited and been a bigger plot point. Admittedly it is cool to see him starting from the bottom again. I don't know. I just want Pam to come back so there can be some cool pranks on Dwight. Silly shows distracting me from life.

I want a macbook. Why does the black one cost so much more than the white one? Essentially they are the same except for the color. Gah. I really want to order mine now, but I said I'd wait until Christmas.... Decisions decisions... Maybe around christmas they'll have a nice deal, include an iPod or something.

Finally caught up

Number of naps so far today: 2
Number of calories burned: 0
Hours studying: 0
Hours watching stuff on Hulu: about 5
Stress level: 5

I so should have been studying and writing the massive essay I have due this week, but I didn't. I was out of town for a bit and now I'm back. I was gone on the worst days. Thursday was The Office, which is something I basically live and breath for. And then Friday I missed the debate.

Today I got back and caught up on all the crap I missed. Heroes (episodes 1 and 2) was badass. I still have tons of questions all the freaking time, but it isn't as bad as Lost. I feel like Lost could atleast answer a few questions without having to create millions more. Give me something solid to work with. I watched the ep. of Grey's Anatomy. Not a show I pay much attention too, but I might have to now that I'm obsessed with Hulu and basically anything on the net. There are so many things to watch and so little time. Ugly Betty was cute. I just want Gio to come back though. I got to watch The Office too. Not much to say except I totally teared up when Jim popped the question. I'm totally annoyed with Pam's "friend" who just happens to have to same kind of humor as Jim. I'm sure they're going to turn that into some crappy love triangle. I hope Toby comes back, poor guy. As much as I'd love for Michael and Holly to get together, I really don't think it would work. Michael is always going to be in some crap with Jan, and Holly is too nice to get involved with that. And Andy just needs to go away. Far far away. A castle far far away where no one can hear him.

For realz.

Attempted to make a jacket today, but stupid machine won't sew through 4 layers of fleece. I'll probably have to hand sew it, and at this rate it'll be done by May. Great.

I need to get my ears pierced.

Talkin' like the Bard is cool

Number of naps so far today: 0
Number of calories burned: 0
Cookies: too many to mention
Speeches memorized, plays read, any studying whatsoever: 0
Stress level: 12

Sometimes I think about how cool Elizabethan English is, well atleast how cool Shakespeare's plays are. I'm sure not everyone talked in an elegant way, but it's nice to think they might have. I love reading his plays and laughing at the double entendres. (check out the insult generator on the sidebar for amusement) Wouldn't it be fun for people to be witty like that all the time? I guess it would get annoying after awhile, but it would still be pretty cool.

Anyway....

Bob Dylan has some poetry in the New York Times. 21 and 17

Is is a coincidence that I talked about Shakespeare AND Bob Dylan today? Perhaps.

Reading... finally

Number of naps so far today: 0
Number of calories burned: 0
Pieces of cake: 1
Books finished (finally): 1
Books reading now: 5

Basically, I'm lazy. Not much to talk about right now except that I really need to work on my speech for class, story assignments, and I must remember to go to event tomorrow night.

But there is a super cute ring from Target.com. It's from the new Dean Harris line.
And then I saw that Lucky Brand Jeans had BEATLES inspired stuff....






ahhhh......
I wonder if I can spend my college fund money on jewelry....

Just wants it to be January already

Number of naps so far today: 1
Number of calories burned: 0
Scoops of ice cream: 1
Weird moments that it rained: 0
Cookies bought: 2

Got home today to find out the the water wasn't working, and hadn't been all day. So, I figure I'll wait awhile to take my usual after school shower because the water is bound to come on soon. No. Hours later my neighbors have water, but I do not. Of all of the apartments mine was the one they forgot to turn back on. The one person who is almost OCD about taking showers. Ugh. So called our manager (who wasn't in her office during her office hours and hasn't ever been really) and we finally get our water back. But I was pissed.

And now I can't remember the combination to my lock. And I can't remember where I put the paper with the combination, but that's not surprising since I haven't used the lock in four years.

Dreams are surprisingly realistic

Number of naps so far today: 1
Number of calories burned: 0
Number of classes skipped: 0
Scoops of ice cream: 2
Weird moments that it rained: 2

Seriously, rain? Come on, we don't get rain ever and the first time we do no one predicts it or admits they were wrong. Hopefully it'll rain out the fair so all that dust won't kick up in the air. eww.... And rain sucks more for me because if fall actually starts this week I won't be able to wear pants. I gained weight over the summer so I'm super screwed because all I have for winter is jeans.

And now for more homework procrastination (which my dream was about).... ahhh Urban Outfitters, how I love thee.



It's cute AND plaid. And it has ruffles. AND useless buttons. Who wouldn't want that?



Do I really need to say anything?




I'm not sure about this trend. I might have to try it once (with a hemp headband I am currently working on). I would like it more if I didn't think (know) that it would make my hair look like a giant fluffy mushroom.

The signs are there

Number of naps so far today: 1
Number of calories burned: 0
Number of classes skipped: 1
Scoops of ice cream: 2
Signs telling me that I should complete my b-day manifesto: a lot

One thing I left off of my b-day resolution/manifesto list was that I was finally going to pluck up the courage to tell this guy how I feel. I've been putting this off forever and I've regretted not saying anything (I'm a loser and didn't figure out how awesomely awesome he was until later). Anyway... today all the signs were there....

In one of my classes we were talking about Hamlet and we got off on to the discussion of putting things off. My prof used the example of asking someone out. It seems simple. Yes or no. But to me there's that whole extra layer of emotion and rejection. Eww.... Then there's the whole idea that once you say it, you can never unsay it. Last semester we talked a lot about that when reading the Love Song of J Alfred Prufrock. Man, that poem really made me freak out because I totally understand his situation more than I should.

Life is so complicated as it is, so why does it have to be made more complicated by the fear of rejection?????

And why do people think Babar is some political statement??? Sweet mother of Yoda. I can't even look on Yahoo anymore.

Fast food is so bad... it's good

Number of naps so far today: 1
Number of calories burned: 0
Number of hours studied: 3
Number of fast food places visited: 2
Fascinators finished: 5

I love the gardenburgers they make at this one fast food place in town, and this afternoon I just had to have one. Then I realized that since I was already there I might as well have some of their deep fried mushrooms. And since I would have to have something sweet I got a pie from the place next door. My goal to lose weight is not working. At this rate no one will recognize me. Everytime I start a diet this happens. I start getting all hungry and craving sweets. Ugh. 

Bangs, again, maybe

Number of naps so far today: 0
Number of calories burned: 0
Failed trips to Target to get replacement Pride and Prejudice DVD: 0
Number of hours studied: 0
Dresses started: 1

I was watching "Failure to Launch" today while I was reading/crocheting/making a dress and I realized I missed my bangs. I've been attempting to grow out my crappy side bangs, but they look so crappy right now. When I saw Zooey Deschanel's bangs I started thinking about cutting my bangs again. I love her hair and her style, but mostly her hair. Seriously. Her bangs aren't too long, or too short, and she doesn't straighten the rest of her hair a lot of times, which I could go for.

One major problem with bangs... maintenence. I would have to keep them from getting too long and since my hair curls I'd have to straighten them constantly. Then if I got tired of them I'd have to wait for them to grow out. Which I hate. I'd almost wait until the end of the semester to cut them, but what if I totally hate them? Then I'd have to let them grow out after I move. And then everyone I met would see my half-assed hair. First impressions are everything (atleast that's what my communications teacher said). But if I cut them now and hate them I'd have time to let them grow out a little. Gah. But I've been trying to grow them out for months now, so cutting them now would be a waste of time. But I really hate my hair now.

Crap.

I miss Psych!!!

Number of naps so far today: 1 (super long too)
New episodes of Psych left: 0 (so sad)
Number of hours at gym: about 2
Number of calories burned: 350
Failed trips to Target to get replacement Pride and Prejudice DVD: 2

It just went off, but I really, really miss Psych. I love it like I love The Office. Seriously. That's saying a lot. I just wish they had gotten together at the end. But then again, when Pam and Jim got together in The Office there wasn't a whole lot left to do, so they came up with all these not so awesome things to complicate their relationship. Ugh.

Anyway, no new Psych until January. Which is sad, but cool, since I'll be at college by that time. Hopefully I'll get USA in my dorm. And Sci-Fi. AND TRAVEL CHANNEL! I can't think about it....

I was looking at the new runway shows and I LOVE the Spring '09 Anna Sui collection.
It was a cool mix of color rich bohemian (my person style) and simple black and white matador inspired clothes.

I love this (though I think it could have been done in more vibrant colors than this, especially since the collection seemed to focus on textiles). I have tons of skirts like this and I like that she combined a vest (with a boho twist) with a sheer peasant top.


Look at those colors! Love the scarf as a belt. I've been using ties for belts (and headbands) for years, but I've never really thought about pairing a scarf with a skirt like that. I must do it!

When I was with my friend at Torrid the other day I saw tons of shirts (shorter of course) like this. I can never find shirts like this in my size and I was so bummed Torrid didn't have any in my size. I guess I'm just in that in between size the no one wants to cater to. I'm not big enough to shop at Torrid (which has the coolest clothes ever, I would almost gain weight just to be able to shop there) and I'm too big to really be able to find clothes I LIKE at department stores. Target has been my haven for years. Anyway. I have some extra fabric and I'm totally making this for myself. Sans massive lace.


Also going to try to make something like this, only longer because with an ass like mine sitting down in something this short isn't an option. I like how it's a mod style dress, but it's in boho colors. Love Love Love.



Ok, these shoes literally make me want to cry. I have to have them. I don't care the cost. And that's saying something since I'm super cheap. Since I was a little girl I've always loved anything and everything Egyptian. I wanted to be an Egyptologist for the longest time (the day came when I realized I needed to make money in order to live comfortably). I worship Zahi Hawass (famous Egyptologist and Director of Antiquities at Cairo if I remember correctly). He's on Discovery Channel stuff all the time (surprised they haven't taken away Discovery Channel yet). So when I was looking over the runway pictures (http://nymag.com/fashion/fashionshows/) I glimpsed the shoes and I flailed around until I found a closeup. There they are, my perfect shoes. Gold, my favorite gold shoes finally had to be retired this month. Not to tall, nice because I don't care to increase my height even though I probably should. SANDALS, which are the only things I live in (excepting the days it rains, then I just can't avoid pulling out my converse). And Egyptian. I tried tracking them down, but there aren't a whole lot of links up on people's websites. Not surprising since this happened yesterday.
If I could include every piece of her collection here I would, but I can't because it would go one forever. Seriously, go check it out. It's the most fabulous thing I've seen. I literally want every piece. But alas, I am but a college student and cannot afford to throw my money away on things like clothes. Which is why I sew.

Edit: Dr. Horrible's Sing-A-Long-Blog is hilarious!!!!!!! http://www.drhorrible.com/index.html

People are silly

Number of naps so far today: 0
New episodes of Psych left: 1
People still pissed off today: 4
Amount I care: -90
Level of pride in self: 100

I like how I've finally become assertive. Instead of just letting people walk all over me I'm doing things my way. I think my 20th b-day has woken me up to the fact that I'm now an adult and I shouldn't let people just take advantage of the fact that I appease people in order to avoid any kind of conflict. Guess what. Not anymore. No longer will I let people put off doing something I asked them to do weeks ago. No. I will nag them because they nag me. No longer will I let other people do something if i know I can do it better. If it affects me then I'm going to do it right the first time... thoroughly. No longer will I allow myself to not question things. No. I will question till the cows come home now.

So yeah. I'm pretty happy. I just can't wait for this semester to be over.

Instead of studying...

More window shopping at urban outfitters ....

Ever since I finished Breaking Dawn I've loved Garrett, so I guess it's no surprise I'm drawn to military-esque clothing. I really want to make a wearable military jacket type thing.

I have two shirt dresses. One is plaid. The other is flowery. I love them, but I'm not sure what kind of shoes to wear with them. My gladiator shoes are the only things I can think of....
This is a cape supposedly. Don't care what it is, it's cute. I want.


I was with a friend today and we saw some awesome jackets like this at Torrid. They were red plaid and lined. AND the hood had faux fur all over it. My friend had always wanted a jacket like that, and I must admit I have too.


As cute as this is... I don't see anyone being able to pull this off in real life. At least, no one I know would. Still really, really, depressingly cute.

I'm considering just wearing stuff at my college that I'm sure people will look at and think "what the hell is that thing and why is it so ugly?" But I always think about wearing some really cool stuff I have, but don't. Then a year later EVERYONE is wearing that thing. hmmm...

Edit:

I found my jacket on Nordstrom.com. I'd rather it was in red plaid... and not almost $80. Maybe I could make one.....

The silent implications of e-mails

Number of naps so far today: 0
Pieces of cake: No cake left!!
New episodes of Psych left: 1
People pissed off today: 4
Amount I care: -45

As much as I love technology I have to say it makes social lives so stressful. Seriously, someone can say so much with so little. If someone doesn't reply for a long time you become paranoid, maybe they're mad about something... perhaps you said/did something wrong. The thought that maybe they were busy never crosses your mind. A reply sent quickly must mean the person is eager to talk to you, but once the 24 hr mark is passed the dread will set in.

I know some people say size doesn't matter, but in e-mails apparently it does. A long reply means the person is interested, yet a short and sweet reply means something is wrong. Using "sincerely" also has negative connotations.

If a person doesn't really reply in a way to keep the conversation going how do you reply? You can't, because if they aren't excited about keeping up the conversation then they must be mad at you and therefore trying to keep the pitiful conversation going would be embarrassing.

Right?

No. All e-mails, text messages, social networking sites and cell phones have done is create a new level of social stress. I think about how simple it was as a kid without all of these distractions. You'd just pick up a ball, bounce it to your friend and maybe, just maybe, giggle about a boy.

On another note.... I'm going to be more assertive. I started today being honest about things that bothered me. And you know what, one day the people who are convincing themselves into thinking that they are never at fault will wake up. And I'll be right.

So... in the not-so-famous words of a friend: If you've had a bad day you know what you should say to 'em? Just tell 'em to suck it!

Anticipation

Number of naps so far today: 0
Pieces of cake: o ...so sad
New episodes of Psych left: 1
Times danced around like a loon: meh... I lost count
Number of late night swims: 1

Today... I made a call. To admissions. The admissions office of the college I applied to. And all I wanted to know was when they would be notifying students whether or not they would be accepted. But guess what? Instead of that... I got to find out that I WAS accepted. I didn't have to wait for my big envelope. Yep. Things are pretty sweet right now... pretty sweet indeed (surprising considering I only got a few hours of sleep due to school crap last night).

Now I can finally relax.

late night swimming

Number of naps so far today: 1
Pieces of cake: 1
New episodes of Psych left: 1
Times thought about studying: 25
Number of sleeping masks finished: 1

Swimming at night is fun. No one is out there gawking, screaming, splashing or trying to fry their skin. Yeah. It's pretty sweet except for the long dark walk back home.

Care packages

Number of naps so far today: 1
Pieces of cake: 1
New episodes of Psych left: 1
Times thought about studying: 1
Number of football games attended: .25

I've been meaning to send care packages to some of my friends who are at universities. I need to do that soon. I've started making/putting together stuff, but then I get distracted with life. Hopefully now that I have this here I'll remember to finish them.

I've always wanted to work for the Travel Channel. I haven't had the Travel Channel in about a year because the apartment I live in pays for the cable, and the owners don't feel the need to indulge me. But the ten sports channels we get are totally worth it. Right. When we did get the channel I would literally watch it 24 hours a day. I would sleep on the couch so I wouldn't have to leave the tv because I knew something interesting would come on. Anyway, when I was on vacation recently I got to watch it, and I went on their website for the first time in a few months and I saw this link for a "Travel Channel Academy." From what I can tell it's a workshop that teaches people the basics of using and editing travel videos. It's not exactly broadcast journalism, but they do say stuff about being a "travel journalist." There's a workshop thing at the end of October in Santa Barbara, but it costs about $2000. As much as I would love to do this (especially since it might help me get in with the Travel Channel peeps sooner) I'm afraid it's pretty much a multimedia class. When I transfer I'll probably have to take some kind of multimedia class, which won't cost $2000. Maybe one day down the road I'll get the money to attend the workshop.

Not enough days in the week

Number of naps so far today: 1
Pieces of cake: 1
Number of bras worn: 0
New episodes of Psych left: 1
Times thought about studying: 1

Seriously... if Shawn and Juliet don't kiss before the end of the season I'll be... not mad, but disappointed. I'll still watch it.

Right now I'm more mad/disgusted at Warner Bros for using their fans. Like moving a movie back 11 months is going to make anyone happy (except for the studio's wallet)? I think they realized that Twilight was going to earn more money. And Twilight totally deserves it because they've let fans come on/around set and RELEASE the interviews and footage they've taken. They haven't been copyright cops and try to censor people every time they said "Edward Cullen." As much as people criticize Twilight, I have to say I appreciate the way the author and movie makers have treated the fans more than the Harry Potter people have. It's like pulling teeth to even get a teaser trailer from HP.

While I'm on the subject of Twilight, I have to talk about Breaking Dawn. It wasn't that bad. Yeah, it was insanely unexpected, but how much fun would it have been if everyone predicted exactly what was going to happen. And I think it says something about the author. She knew her ending wouldn't make everyone thrilled, but guess what, it's her story and she's not going to change it just to make everyone happy (well, she kinda did, kinda didn't... it depends on which interview you read).

Bottom line: Breaking Dawn nowhere near as bad as HP #7. (and that's saying something since I'm the biggest Harry Potter fan I know)

Things I need to buy:
I know I shouldn't be wasting any time this semester, but I can't really concentrate without this show. Just having the DVD in my house would make me feel instantly more studious. (that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it sir!)

I need to finish a b-day present for a friend and the only way I can is with these. Twilight... how you permeate every aspect of my life. I wish I could stop... and yet I cannot.

I was just trying to save it!

Number of naps so far today: 0
Pieces of cake: 1
Number of bras worn: 0
Number of games have to go to: 1
Number of games want to go to: 0

Seriously. Today I was out at the pool and suddenly I saw something odd out of the corner of my eye. There, trying to get away, was a frog. I got out of the pool and found the net in order to save the thing because I knew there was no way he (she) would be able to get out on his (her) own. So I spent the next 15 minutes trying to save the thing. Against its will it would seem. Seriously. Me trying to save that frog was like a metaphor for my life. As hard as I try to do the right thing (because in the end everything would have been fine, the frog would only had a few seconds of discomfort as I walked it over to the bushes) it still backfires and I have to work that much harder.

The first time I got the frog out it promptly jumped past me and right back in. Then it realized it would be harder for me to get it if it went to the bottom of the deep end. So I got it out again, and because there was a fence behind me and I didn't have enough room to move quickly away, it jumped back in. The last time I had to chase that thing all over the pool, and when I finally got it I wasn't anywhere near the bushes, so I just threw him (her) over the wall. Yep. It wasn't far (a few feet to the patch of grass), but still, you'd think a frog would know when you were trying to save it from a date with the filter.

Ugh

Number of textbooks the post office finally delivered after they begrudgingly looked for it: 1
Number of tests tomorrow: 2
Number of naps so far today: 1
Pieces of cake: 2
Number of bras worn: 0

So school is stressful, but that's what I get for trying to graduate early right? I have tons of crap due tomorrow and I didn't even receive my textbook until today so I've been trying to deal with that, but I had to take a little break because I realized I'd been reading the same sentence for 10 minutes.
Lately I've been thinking about the future and whether I really want to keep the major I'd thought I wanted. I really don't know anymore. In fact, right now, I think I'd rather drop out than have to keep doing what I'm doing. But then I think about how much time and money I would waste, and how I would have to find a job. So for now the only thing I can do is keep going to school and hope I can keep my grades up. Oh, and find time to sleep.

Two decades of awesomeness!

Number of textbooks the post office is late delivering: 1
Number of articles due Tuesday: about 5
Number of words typed for said articles: 0
Number of naps so far today: 2
Pieces of cake: 2 (about to be three)

Tomorrow The Office comes out on DVD. I'll probably forget to buy it because I'll be spending most of tomorrow trying to reason with the post office. Gah.
This year I had one of the best birthdays I can remember. I just stayed home, ate cake, and watched movies. I forgot how funny Monty Python is. I've always liked British humor more than American though. I think it's because they make allusions to things and don't feel like they have to dumb everything down.
I think this year I'll come as a Templar Knight for Halloween. I'll take a pillowcase, cut some armholes and a place for my head, then paint on the red cross. It's simple, cheap, and easy to move in.
I've been in a crafty mood lately. I finally finished the black vest I've been working on last night. Then this morning I sewed up four Beatles bags. I still can't believe wal-mart was selling Beatles material.
I was window shopping on Urban Outfitters.com today and I saw these
They're about $12. The weird thing is that I bought a set just like this (only with purple feathers) about four years ago at the powwow they have every year at the community college. It's weird to me that this might be a trend since this was just a little souvenir type thing. But then I saw these

Fascinators. Seriously. I know I would never have an occasion to wear them, but they're cute. Not $24 cute. So I'm going to make papier mache bases, glue on feather and beads, then attach the clip on the back. I'm thinking I'll finally get a chance to make these around Thanksgiving vacation, so they can be Christmas presents.