RAIN!!!

Number of naps so far today: 1
Number of calories burned: -200
Times watched Pride and Prejudice: 0
Amount of studying done: 0
Copies of Bhagawad Geeta: 3

I went to a women's talk thingy today and it was actually pretty cool. The only bad thing was it made me think about how lost I feel sometimes. I'm not one or the other. I'm just in between. I need to read some Amy Tan and other women writers to see how they deal with the in betweens of life. Traditional versus modern. One side versus the other. I just want to feel like I really belong to something, but I always feel liked I'm being pulled in serveral different directions. I could be ok with that, except for the fact that I have to check that little box every once in awhile that reduces me to one thing, typically one word. When I really don't feel like I'm one thing, but checking "other" isn't exactly descriptive either. "Other" makes me think... other species... other galaxy. I feel like people also reduce me to the race they attribute my last name to. That's not cool either. Every semester someone messes up my first name, I correct them, and then they look really carefully at the role sheet, like I'm lying, and then finally check me off. Like I wouldn't know how to say my own name.

It rained today. It kinda rained a week or so ago, but today it REALLY rained. I love rain. I love the rainy smell. The wet concrete. The soggy dirt. There's something calming about it all.